how are you?

it is sort of funny to sit here and write to no one about myself. i am telling no one and yet, anyone and everyone all about what goes on in my little corner of the world. do we really care about what happens in the lives of others? even those we know?

and, if you answer "yes. of course i care", i have to remind you, with so many other more important things going on in the world, the little minutae of my life are so irrelevant. but here i sit...ready to share more, as if asia were not being beseiged by natural disasters and right here people losing their homes and loved ones getting sick.

so, i confess. stressful day today. work related. i should have come home after piano and mowed the lawn, but here i sit. i should know my new zumba songs better than i do, but here i sit. i should have more tickets to my trip in july sold, but here i sit, should have fabric and card stock for my daughter's bat mitzvah, but you guessed it, here i sit. should have let my heart move on, but here i sit.

i am sure that tomorrow will be a fresh and new day. i am sure that i will wake up and attack the day with new fervor and that i will once again begin crossing things off of my list, but for right now i feel a little like i am not doing my part. no matter how i conduct myself, and no matter what i handle, it is simply not right or enough.

so, if you are out there, and you do care, like you say you do....do you have days where you sort of feel like a failure at everything? like nothing you do is really interesting/great/significant/enough? if you do, and you would like to share, please feel free to do so....

because, i do care. because i do want to know how you are. and i really mean it.

kisses.

a

just one week after

turning 13 and the middle school drama begins. whew. what chaos the past few days. this has been quite a learning experience for me. i thought i was really passing the mama test, when after handling, listening, supporting...i asked her to do something around the house and all i heard was "great. as usual, you never make anything better!" AAARRRGHHHHHH.....

however, in our defense, i do believe she is aware of all that i have been helping her with. i am not just blankly taking her side. i listen. i ask questions. and then i try and give her the tools to handle it.

i do believe i aged exponentially this week, and if i were a true drinking woman, this would be the time to indulge.....

working from home today, which is really wonderful. have already practiced my piano, done laundry, stripped the sheets and have made my to do list, and it's only 8:22am!!!! need to try squeezing in mowing the lawn as well!

have to get organized with my time for the next few days, and get my life ready.

hope the sun is shining wherever you are.

kisses.

a